Wake up

as i wake up and realize that yet again the seemingly endless experiences that i went threw where only in my head. that my dreams are the mental envisioning of how my i wanted my life to turn out and me a now fully awake is going to face a different less pleasing life. i go threw this everyday and each day it doesnt get any easier to just shake off what i just thought up. though if it may be as trivial as getting my dream girl or as heartfelt as helping making the world be better with one thunderous speech, its always hard to shake off and setting my foot forward towards the commencement of my day. yet i do each day know that none of those occurrences will happen anytime soon or ever, though i did come close once. the same even that took place in my dream remade it self at school but with a twist as always. instead of getting that warmth i had in my head the exact opposite happen and i just felt dumb for ever wanting something i knew i could never really obtain.

yeah...

i hate life that is all

OOOH

ok now back to politics. i hate cnn always starting shit in my opinion there mindless dribble about clinton this obama that who the hell cares i mean seriously. we all know Clinton(the women version) is just trying to slander obama name enough so that she herself can look better. oboma frank is highly repetitive he really bores me but is better then that cold hearted vixen Clinton. so i hope he wins today because i want to see hilary cry it would make my day :)

whoa my head hurts

what a strange weekend that was you know i should never take my friends seriously again. well i did get drunk and kinda got lost but i found my way back to my room and made a pack with this crazy stylish kid my (Will) never to drink again. it was pretty funny how he explained it to me "if you stop doing bad things ,like drinking and smoking then good things will probably happen to you" that kid should be yado or something.